Home,Finally!

I just returned from an exhausting experience to revive and regain the supposedly anonymous self that I had lost over the years of coming to terms with the fact that I am Just ME!
I have been away from writing because I discovered that no amount of expression will help me till I get started on reaching the ultimate picture that I have been so long.I cant escape my doings.Good or bad.Everday assignments,life's trails,whether I have the strength or not.
I have plenty of work and travel to do.Plenty of expectations that I have to meet.More of myself than others.
Lets hope for the best.Wish me luck!!

Baisers voles

Being nothing,being clumsy and crappy and grouchy can help.You are all over the place and the place is out of order.Suddenly you cry and tell yourself"Its absolutely okay to mess up my life.Ofcourse its my life.I can hell do what I want to do with it"and then you cry a little more.It does help.When you run out of tears and run out of sympathy for self.You still lay in the corner thinking "God I am such a mess"
But then something just pops in your head that says"It is really your life"That is one annoying realisation and it does seem to bog you down even more.Hopeless.I am sometimes.But then I look at myself in the mirror,wear my kohl and I look absolutely fine.Nothing seems as out of order.Its all in the mind and how we manipulate it.Cant I get simpler?Cant I stop growing and understanding lifes complications.Peoples complications.Simplicity can help so much.It weaves into the hassles of life and brings light to all.Like unwinding a rough knot.A kiss,a hug, a gesture of gratitude they are never stolen.You never really run out of tears.And you never really run out of life!!

New days

I got up this morning with a smile.It wasnt really a surprise cause I knew this would be coming,but it was a relief.A feeling of trustworthiness,love,freedom and security.Like I could breathe without doubt and could believe without expectations.I love you alot my friends.Thankyou for the love that you surrounded me with.I am sorry that I couldnt notice it for all the wrong reasons.But I wont do the mistake again.